Keep it up

Today is difficult, as I have already felt the churnings in my stomach as I began to drift away from the things that I know are important. I had no plan, but instead just went on my normal course, taking things as they come, instead of planning my day to make the most of it. As I began to stress, I digressed and went back to old, destructive behavior. I now have my senses back, and am praying to God that he will guide me through the rest of the day, and provide me with opportunities to have successes today, no matter how small.

I know that the small successes add up. If I don't do the small things today, then I am going to find myself in a day, or two days, or a week, or two months from now, stressing over the fact that I let this time slip away and did not use it to its full potential.

I only have so many hours each day. What I choose to do with those hours is an example of how important I believe they are.

I can push forward and do the things I need to do. I can take positive, concrete steps that might seem like small things now, but are part of the larger picture.

Yes, I am finding things cropping up that are making me very, very nervous about what is going to happen next week and next month. And the one thing I can do is to keep pressing forward, and examine those things when I need to examine them, in the time set aside to examine them. Taking the time now to worry about them does me no good. It does nothing but make me anxious and nervous and lightheaded. Instead, I need to focus on the tasks in front of me, and concentrate on them.

I am going to ask God to please help me to stay focused on those tasks. To help me put them in writing or in a plan format, and work on them diligently and with purpose.